Tuesday, January 23, 2007
All I wanted...
All i wanted was just to spend some alone time with you before you leave.
No. I didn't mean to be scarastic.
No. I didn't purposely not want to tell you how I feel.
Sometimes, all i want is just to be you and me all alone.
The period of time we've been together, i could almost count the number of times that it's just you and me.
The rest of the times were shared with others.
I guess i'm selfish.
I just want you all to myself sometimess.
I adore your friends.
I like spending time with you and them.
They're all lovely but don't you want our time to be spent just between the two of us at times?
Maybe it's wrong for me to ype all these.
Maybe it's wrong for me to feel this way.
I love you and if it makes you happy that we share our time with your friends, i'm happy too.
I'm sorry for tonight.
I'm sorry for x'mas eve.
I'm sorry for new year's eve.
I'm sorry for wanting you all to myself.
I'm sorry that i'm selfish.
I love you Danial...
My heart - all to you.
3na
3-na's black past on 1:57 AM
Monday, January 22, 2007
Last Weekend...
This will be the last weekend with my love until he leaves for his Nike event at KL. How i wish i could go.. Sigh.. Be a good boy alright my dear?
Saturday.
This blissful day marks the last weekend of my internship. 5 more days to go before i'm free. Went to work as usual. Then met up with my baby after work where we headed to PS for lunch at LJS. We then walked around and then met up with Terence and his friend. Went to watch the boys play pool at Paradiz Centre before heading to Gas Haus for the Blasphemour Ritual gig to catch Suicidal play. It's been a long long time since i went for a local gig. Some bands really wowed me and made my jaw drop. My baby was supposed to play but in the end he didn't. Aww... So wanted to see him play... Anyway, he gave me a present for my to remember the gig by. (Check it out below)
After the gig we headed to walk around Bugis. Wanted to catch a movie but Bugis don't have, so we headed to try at the new cathay. To our dismay, the show we wanted was sold out. So we ended up playing Winning 11 at EMax. The EMax at the New Cathay is kinda better compared to the one at Cini as it uses XBox 360. After that, we headed home.
Sunday.
Headed to baby's house to get the bikes and then we cycled to Downtown East where we bought ourselves lunch. We then cycled to Pasir Ris Beach/Park for our picnic where we spent the afternoon lazing around under the beatiful skies. We were so relaxed that we fell asleep in each others arms. (I love you to bits my dear)
After that, we headed back to his place where we lazed around. Around 9pm, we went out to have dinner at East Coast. Satay and chicken wings are so goooooddd....
The night ended with us enjoying each others company at the Esplanade.
Wow... Sometimes, i just feel like i couldn't catch my breath when i think about him. He's my love... And yes... He's my eveything... I've never been so much in love before.Never been so sure. I'll make you the happiest man on earth. I love you Danial.
Be a good boy when you're at KL. I'll be missing you every second you're outta my sight.
3-na's black past on 9:03 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
9 more days...
It'll be all over soon... No more feeling and being treated like a piece of crap...
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25th is nearing... I'm so scared i can't go. I trust him but i'm afriad we'll drift apart if i don't go. I'm afraid of a third party. I'm afraid... But i'll let him go... Cause i know he wants to... And i want him to know that i do trust him... Pray that i can go... Cause i really really wanna go.. Be there with him... And meet his friends.
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The world is full of lowdown arseholes that have nothing better to do with their lives.
People who have nothing better to do that to talk about others.
People who find their lives so meaningless that they must butt into the lives of others.
People who find excitement in spreading rumours about others.
Even when they don't know you at all.
What's over is over you stupid girl. (i don't know your name cause i'm not bothered) You treated him like crap. You made used of him and now you want him back? You're nothing compared to me. Paid your way for a diploma? How smart can you get? Wake up and stop being an arse. You'll get nothing at marking rude comments. You'll get nothing for spreading rumours about me. (I'm also talking about people who believe these rumours even though they don't know who the hell i am) You'll get nothing for apologising to him and his mom. You'll get nothing for telling him you're wrong and that you've lied about sleeping with others when you're with him. (Oh come on, you even purposely brought a guy to his shop to 'show off'. How childish) You'll get nothing for calling him, texting him and trying to find any way possible to have at least a little contact with him. You'll get nothing cause you are nothing. You're only ruining yourself. Stop bothering about me. Stop bothering about us. Start bothering about yourself. He loves me. He doesn't love you. He hates you for making use of him. So girl, get a life and do what is best for you.
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I've never been so much in love with someone before. I've never did such things. I'm in love. I'm so very much in love. His smile, just melts my heart. His happiness, makes everything go away. He's the one. He's mine. 3 years... You promised. =)
3-na's black past on 9:23 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
It's been quite some time...
Well.. it's been quite sometime since i've really blogged. So many things have happened that it just seems so hard to say all at once.
Attachment has been a pain but i'm still living. (I cannot type much here as if someone form the company finds out, i may get sacked eh. Trust me, it has already happened and i'm not about to let it happen to me)
For those who didn't know, i've found the man of my dreams. Yeah.. the perfect one for me and i'm so much in love with him.
I LOVE YOU DANI BABY!
New year has been nice for me. Counted down at Balcony and then headed to Zouk where i danced the night away with my boy. =)
Soon, school's gonna end and i'll be graduating... I really wonder what should i do after grad... Thinking of maybe working for MOS as i was asked by them to send in my resume to work with their events dept. Should i?
Oh.. Yesterday, went to celebrate Ting Ting's bdae by having steamboat.. And for the 1st time in a very long time, i ate non stop for 2 hours. Ahhh! So guilty. Got to see Sheena and Ariel... Miss them.. Seeing Alicia drinking beer was one of the funniest things that i've ever saw! LOL! I love all you fellow interns!
I know the next sentences are random but...
I miss my cloudies... sigh...
I miss my baby... sigh...
3-na's black past on 10:32 PM